The light’s already fading, so I don’t know if I’m going to be able to hang on to the light for this video. I wanted to talk about the books that I’m going to be reading this week. I don’t tend to make videos, TBR videos, very often because I read very quickly and I’d so much more rather often share an opinion, a strong one, or not so strong, that I have about a book or a theme that I’m thinking about. But, I just wanted to share these because I’m really struggling to read at the moment. I think with all of the chaos going on outside, or at least in the US, but really all round the world actually, the global chaos, it sort of infiltrated my brain a little bit and it’s stopped me being able to focus on reading in the way that I normally am able to. Reading for me is like oiling the wheels, it’s, it gets me through this wall of the way my brain works and it helps me to think and it helps me to make sense of things even if they’re not related to what I’m reading about. It helps me to make connections between things. Reading to me is so valuable, and so important, so when i can’t do it I feel really frustrated. The first book is “We Are Okay” by Nina LaCour, which is about grief, and loss, and someone who has left this terrible sadness, or tried to leave this terrible sadness behind and go back to university, but actually finding herself quite isolated as she grapples with this thing that she sort of tried to disconnect herself from, but hasn’t done so successfully. If that is a vague enough way to put it. I don’t think this is out yet actually. I think this comes out… Let’s use the old phone This is why I’m, you know, booktuber of the year. This comes out on the 14th of February, on Valentine’s day so by then I will hopefully have some thoughts for you on how I find it, but I think it’s gonna be great. I have full faith in this book! This is one that I’ve actually started “Mama Can’t Raise No Man”. I’m about halfway through. It’s by Robyn Travis, and it’s from a very small publisher in the UK, um, so I was really excited to read it and read his debut and support it. It’s written in letters but lots of different kinds of tones of letters. It documents the interactions between his mum and his siblings and other people who are in his life, his lawyer, and so on. And you slowly get a picture of him and also of how people see him. This is a book that I’m very excited to finish. I will let you know how I think about this one too. This is going to be a recurring theme, i’ll let you know what I think. This next book I’m really excited about is “Wing Jones” which is by Katherine Webber who I know from the, like, UK book scene and just from being out and about on twitter out and about online. Katherine is absolutely wonderful and I’m so excited for her, and proud of her that she’s written this book. From what I understand, I don’t actually know loads about it yet because I wanted to just sit and read it and give it my time and attention, um, it’s a book about running, someone who discovers a love of running when she’s a teenager, but it’s out of some really difficult circumstances. I think in the US it’s called “The Heartbeats of Wing Jones” if you’re looking for it. One of my tried and tested ways of getting me out of, like, this headspace where it’s hard to focus on reading, is to read poetry, and so I’ve been, um, I’ve actually dived into a little bit but I want to do more reading of Kate Tempest’s collection, her new collection, “Let Them Eat Chaos”. I love her. I think she’s wonderful. And I love her writing, and I just kind of love sitting there with it, and going back to it, and reading it in different orders, and reading it aloud to myself as well. It kind of becomes this personal poetry performance I have, um, as I discover it. Because to me poetry— I get so much more from it when I’m reading it aloud to myself. It’s kind of like when you’re reading plays and you suddenly get all of the wonderful dancing of words when you read it aloud to yourself and you understand more about the plot I think, or at least I do. Like sometimes, when i’m reading a play, because the lines are so short my eyes just scan over it and the same when I’m reading poetry, but when I read it aloud there’s something about sharing it, even with myself, that helps me understand more of it. I am fond of reading poetry to other people, whether they are romantic interests or not. The next poetry collection that I’m going to be reading is actually by one of you! It’s by Maria Elena, and it’s “Eternal Youth”. She very kindly sent me a copy. When you make things, and you share them and I… Whether it’s like a huge project or a small project I genuinely feel so much pride, and I don’t mean that in, um, like a paternalistic way or like, I, in anyway own it. It’s nothing to do with me. It’s just so exciting to me that this is such a creative, and vibrant community and I’m just very, very lucky to be a part of it. So yes, I’m really excited to read this and I also just think that this is a beautiful cover. And that’s through, Thought Catalog books which you can find at thoughtcatalog.com, spelt the american way, without the UE at the end. I’ve been wanting to read “Homegoing” by Yaa Gyasi for forever. I’m so excited to read this. I’m gutted that I haven’t had an opportunity to start yet, like a brain opportunity to start yet, but i’m really excited. And I know that this is one that will have popped up in many reviews you will have seen, in videos you will have seen, um, but I think that is in this case because it’s a truly brilliant book, um, from everything that I hear. So I’m trying to go in and have my own experience of it but I’m just excited. I don’t know if I’ve said excited maybe 10 million, or 12 million times on that sentence but we’ll see. This is one of the books that I got for Christmas. My mum got this for me after John actually recommended it. Colson Whitehead’s “The Underground Railroad”, which, um, he just raved about, and a few other thousand people raved about too, so I’m really excited for this. I think it won the National Book Award? Oh look, in fact it says, “National Book Award winner 2016” The final book I’m going to read this week is “The Animators” which is a novel about two girls working in the very male-dominated field of animation. I’m really excited to read this one, it’s been extremely well-reviewed as well. And this is also one of those books that comes in, um, those Quarterly boxes where they pick a different author to help curate one of those boxes and send along other books that are related to that book too, which you might have seen with “The Mothers”. That’s like another way you can do it. Or you can just buy the book, you know, it’s a… [catching a book sounds] a book. The End. Once I’ve read all of these, some of them might make their way into other videos and if not, in any case, I’m going to post on community with my thoughts about each book. Sometime in the next, hopefully in the next week, once I’ve read them all. I hope that gives you a good idea about what I’m reading. I would love to hear what you’re planning on reading this week, or this month, or whatever it is you’ve got on your plate right now. [exhale] I’m really excited about this year and books. I even just feel happier than I did the entire day talking about books right now. Grateful for books. Grateful to have a community to talk about them with in-depth, a lot. And, um, yeah so thank you. But yeah, more book videos coming very soon. And as a very final note, do let me know if there are any other larger themes that you’d like me to put together a little books video about. Some of my favourite books on that theme, or books that I’m planning to read on that theme too. Because I can do that too. It is a full request service here. I’m like a jukebox.